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My name is Brittany.
I am new to the Attain Fertility community, and a blogger out in the Internet world. I am 29 years old, but 30 is staring me down as it gets ready for its arrival in a couple of months. I am honest, and more open than I probably should be at times. I never had a problem learning how to share.
Three years ago, my husband (M) and I started the baby journey. We had always known that a family is what we wanted, and that children needed to be a part of our future. It was a scary but exciting time. Making that decision to bring a new life into the world for the very first time can be a little overwhelming, but also full of so much anticipation. We definitely were hopeful that this would be an easy process.
But the powers that be had other plans. Three years and two miscarriages later, we are nowhere near where we thought we would be. Those first months were exciting, and full of hope. But “Ok, maybe next month!” quickly turned into “Ok … maybe next month?” which quickly turned into monthly tears and an overall feeling of disappointment. I kissed that feeling of hope goodbye.
This go around, we have been officially trying for over one year and have begun the search for other options to help us out in the process. Taking that first step to seek help has been a hard pill to swallow and I don’t think I need to dwell too much on how the frustration level has started to rise. As a perfectionist and some one who has a serious instant gratification problem, I wanted to do things the natural, holistic way (vitamins and charting and fertility books, oh my!), it simply has not happened, but we are hopeful that maybe something else will work.
That hope made the pill go down a little easier. We are still early in the process and awaiting our next appointment to tell us what our next big step is, but if feels like we’re starting this process for the first time all over again. I don’t know how long that hope will last, or if there is something more seriously wrong with me than my initial blood tests can tell, but having that feeling of “ok, maybe this will work” again – even if it is fleeting – is nice to have again.
So I will take it. And embrace it. And be happy to be on this journey, however different and frustrating it may be at times.
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Great to have you contributing to the community Brittany.
The journey can be difficult but the destination is well worth it and there are abundant resources and compassionate people who you’ll find on the way that can help.
We look forward to hearing more of your story.
Thank you! I am looking forward to sharing our journey.
So glad to have you here Brittany!
Great! Very Interesting! I am sure that Information and Knowledge are a POWER (especially for women). I am, also trying to help women with correct useful information in – http://www.women-health-info.com/
With best regards. DOLY
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