In one of my last blog posts about my IVF cycle, I wrote about the embryo transfer. That’s a great time because everything is possible. Now let’s talk about the hard part. Waiting.
After my embryo transfer, I had 13 loooooong days to wait before my first beta, the blood test that measures the pregnancy hormone HCG. Now, I think you all know my long, colorful history with pregnancy tests. I’m seriously addicted. If there is a stick in my house, I will pee on it. Now, my doctor’s office warned me not to take a test early. But I did it anyway. Heck, I’m surprised I made it as long as I did.Eleven days after my transfer I got a tiny, faint little positive on a pregnancy test. But my beta at 13 days past my transfer was only 8. That’s not good. Nonetheless, I went back the following day to see if it was increasing, simply so I wouldn’t be tortured over the weekend. My beta went up to 11 at 14 days past transfer, but I started bleeding the same day. My doctor told me I could stop taking my Prometrium and Estrace and let nature take its course. I announced on the Attain Fertility Facebook page that this cycle was officially a bust. A chemical pregnancy.
But here’s where it gets complicated. My HCG didn’t go down. In fact, it went up for several weeks. While my HCG was increasing, we were officially in limbo, monitoring and waiting. Officially “pregnant” but basically waiting for the inevitable isn’t fun. In fact it’s downright depressing. And we didn’t want to discuss it with friends and family because an explanation required a 15 minute discussion about pregnancy hormone levels doubling and the bleeding and…. well, no. Just, no.
Well now it really is officially over. Next week we have a follow up appointment to figure out where we go next. Do we try IVF again? Or do we give up?
At this point, we don’t know where our infertility journey will take us next. We’re just treading water until we make a decision.